I really appreciated you sharing this. You articulated your journey so well from the perspective of an older sibling!
I love this as well: “The past year has been primarily spent rebuilding my sense of self outside of that situation and putting my energy into people and spaces that return it back to me without having to ask.” You’ve cultivated a new way of being with such strength💓
you express yourself in a very beautiful way, as the eldest daughter, I could relate to most of it, and I am very proud of you for reflecting on everything that have happened, sympathizing with the other person and understanding them without forgetting yourself in the process + your voice is very beautiful, thank you for sharing that beautiful song.
Just when I thought your beauty shone through the page, your voice and the song materialised it into transcendence! Thank you for sharing this perspective and life experience with us through such beauty and grace. I get it. I see you. Love, an eldest daughter too 🫂
I really appreciate this piece of work you've shared with us. As a fellow eldest daughter, and as someone who has gone through a relationship where I got too headstrong for my own good, this really touched my heart in a way I didn't expect 💚
this reminds me of taylor swift's song "So Long, London" It was undoubtedly hard but I'm glad you're moving forward. As someone who's studying to be a nurse and is the eldest daughter, guess I feel the need to feel needed too! I hope we someone who reciprocates the love and care we deserve.
you’re so right, that song fits perfectly 🥲 and thank you so much. i can tell you have a big heart and i know you’re going to make a wonderful nurse. best of luck in your studies and with everything! 🤍
faith. you know what i'm going to say even before i say it but my god. that just broke and healed something in me. reading you spell all of this out made me realize that i've been feeling this exact way too. and the fact that you put in the picture of the giving tree—that's exactly how i feel most of the time. i adore your beautiful, introspective writing, but most of all i love that your essays (and songs by extension) act as a mirror for readers & listeners to be able to resonate and reflect on themselves. that is just a testament to your big heart and empathy, which i always tell you is your biggest strength (also your big brain but we all know that).
i'm just so, so glad that you wrote this essay. i love this essay. i love you.
so so much here felt so relatable and gutted me to my core.
"I would never want any of my little siblings to go through anything remotely similar" - i had this exact feeling a few months ago when i realized my sister would be entering high school soon and i felt so much fear that she would have to go through ANY of the hardships that come with that age. i used to resent her for having an easier life as the second child, but nowadays every day i feel incredibly grateful that she does. i try to text her when i can because im scared she'll go down the same wrong paths i did.
"To this day, I’m still in the dark on whether or not he was speaking from the heart" - i fought with this thought for so long and eventually decided that it was better to falsely believe that there *was* love in the relationship at one point. even if it ended up going wrong, even if maybe it went away, at some point there was love and that is enough to make it worth it.
"I would reply with “you don’t really mean that”—which I’m realizing now was not only something I would say to help snap him out of a spiral, but also to reassure myself of what I’d hoped was true." - i think this, too. and i think sometimes i just have to choose to believe it. for myself more than the other person.
thank you for writing this. this was such a tender read.
Reading this felt like the literary equivalent of looking in a mirror. I wish you all the best ❤️
I’m glad it could resonate 🤍 but also sorry you can relate LOL. wishing you the best as well!!
i'm the eldest daughter and i work in healthcare now. i think i love my job...or maybe i just love feeling needed...🥺
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such a beautiful voice and soul, this hits my heart to the bottom so bad, thank you for speaking with the truth 💓
thank you so much for the kind words, it means a lot <3
I really appreciated you sharing this. You articulated your journey so well from the perspective of an older sibling!
I love this as well: “The past year has been primarily spent rebuilding my sense of self outside of that situation and putting my energy into people and spaces that return it back to me without having to ask.” You’ve cultivated a new way of being with such strength💓
this means so much to me thank you 😭🤍
you express yourself in a very beautiful way, as the eldest daughter, I could relate to most of it, and I am very proud of you for reflecting on everything that have happened, sympathizing with the other person and understanding them without forgetting yourself in the process + your voice is very beautiful, thank you for sharing that beautiful song.
i'm so glad you could resonate! thank you so much for the kind words, it means so much <3
Just when I thought your beauty shone through the page, your voice and the song materialised it into transcendence! Thank you for sharing this perspective and life experience with us through such beauty and grace. I get it. I see you. Love, an eldest daughter too 🫂
getting teary at this comment thank you so much :,) 🥲🫶🏼
Oh WOW. Your voice is really beautiful. I’m glad you got out of that situation. I’ll always be there to hit you up so don’t worry :-)
I really appreciate this piece of work you've shared with us. As a fellow eldest daughter, and as someone who has gone through a relationship where I got too headstrong for my own good, this really touched my heart in a way I didn't expect 💚
you get it 🩷 thank you so much!
this reminds me of taylor swift's song "So Long, London" It was undoubtedly hard but I'm glad you're moving forward. As someone who's studying to be a nurse and is the eldest daughter, guess I feel the need to feel needed too! I hope we someone who reciprocates the love and care we deserve.
you’re so right, that song fits perfectly 🥲 and thank you so much. i can tell you have a big heart and i know you’re going to make a wonderful nurse. best of luck in your studies and with everything! 🤍
faith. you know what i'm going to say even before i say it but my god. that just broke and healed something in me. reading you spell all of this out made me realize that i've been feeling this exact way too. and the fact that you put in the picture of the giving tree—that's exactly how i feel most of the time. i adore your beautiful, introspective writing, but most of all i love that your essays (and songs by extension) act as a mirror for readers & listeners to be able to resonate and reflect on themselves. that is just a testament to your big heart and empathy, which i always tell you is your biggest strength (also your big brain but we all know that).
i'm just so, so glad that you wrote this essay. i love this essay. i love you.
elle you are my soulmate. I am fully convinced of this. I love you so much 🫶🏼
i love you so much. this spoke to my soul
love you forever sweet sarah :,))
faith……🥲
<3
i resonated with this so much and oh my god the song - your voice is angelic.
:,) thank you so much
<33 is it on any platform? i would absolutely love to listen to it more
it isn’t (yet) !!! just here for now but i will consider releasing :,)
i think me being on this app is enough proof for the latter
Just stumbled upon you and your music. I'm so grateful the universe aligned because you are so wonderful!!
so so much here felt so relatable and gutted me to my core.
"I would never want any of my little siblings to go through anything remotely similar" - i had this exact feeling a few months ago when i realized my sister would be entering high school soon and i felt so much fear that she would have to go through ANY of the hardships that come with that age. i used to resent her for having an easier life as the second child, but nowadays every day i feel incredibly grateful that she does. i try to text her when i can because im scared she'll go down the same wrong paths i did.
"To this day, I’m still in the dark on whether or not he was speaking from the heart" - i fought with this thought for so long and eventually decided that it was better to falsely believe that there *was* love in the relationship at one point. even if it ended up going wrong, even if maybe it went away, at some point there was love and that is enough to make it worth it.
"I would reply with “you don’t really mean that”—which I’m realizing now was not only something I would say to help snap him out of a spiral, but also to reassure myself of what I’d hoped was true." - i think this, too. and i think sometimes i just have to choose to believe it. for myself more than the other person.
thank you for writing this. this was such a tender read.